Two months ago, I had a three-hour conversation with my daughter which significantly changed both of our lives. Move. We decided to move. Not down the block. Or across town. Nope. Our choice was halfway across the country. From Oregon to Oklahoma. We agreed to work toward being in a new location by the end …
Learning to live inside-out sounds a bit odd at first. Let me explain. I’ve been working with the Akashic Records for over 20 years and in that time, I’ve learned so much about myself. One of the biggest changes in my life has been what I call the shift to inside-out — instead of outside-in. …
The Futility of Proving Your Worth: Trying to feel worthy of living is a constant push because rapid change has always been a part of life. What’s new in the last two months is the ability to predict into the future has compressed from one year to one day. This compression has a long list of …
My Mom and the Significance of Leap Day: looks into how simple associations between a daughter and her mother push at the daugher’s self-belief. I am very happy with the fact that most people can’t tell my age correctly. Most are off by at least ten years and often fifteen. Especially when they might realize …
Today I have been thinking about how resistance is course correction. When I ran into resistance, I used to think I had done something wrong. That I had missed the turn. That if I had been paying better attention I would have gotten it “right.” Resistance felt like failure. However, thinking of resistance as course …
I am a Work in Progress explores the process of the inner landscape and how one can step through the ups and downs of personal growth. Today I feel myself dealing with my sense of status quo, what’s “normal” or “average” and feeling like I don’t want to be bound by any of it. Nothing …
At a crossroads, choice seems apparent: left, right, straight. Sometimes life is that clear-cut. At the crossroads, feel into your truth, choose, and allow your life to move on. However, there are moments where no matter the logic of the moment nor the feeling in your gut, nothing helps you discern your truthful choice. The …
Leaning into uncertainty . . . I’ve done this in one way or another my entire life. Sometimes not just a lean. More like a leap. Other times, a shrinking back. Still others, an attempt at denial. Without getting into details, in my earliest childhood I experienced several traumatic episodes. Worse than bad. Not as …
I’ve done something really huge for myself. I’ve put me first. Usually, I defer to other, giving them the benefit of the doubt. I’m not saying that I shouldn’t seek to understand. No. I’m saying that my default position is to give up on what I want in the face of trouble on the other …
After many years of experience with the Akashic Records, I still seek out Readings for myself — why? Simple. Presence. When someone opens my Records for me, I am free to show up for me within the presence. Presence in the Akashic Records is often overlooked when the need to know becomes painfully intense. This …
Fierce Self-care. This is my focus for 2019. Not because I’m just learning to take care of myself. This is my focus because I want to acknowledge all my hard work over the last seven years. I want to give myself incentive to not give up or back away. Maybe you know a bit about …
My office is in my home and my home is a one-bedroom apartment. I’ve worked from home for more than 15 years and have trained myself to truly work. I’ve learned habits to help me accomplish my professional goals and I’ve learned to let go of house chores which can easily keep me from getting …
The Hope of Choosing Me Over Grief reflects my inner exploration in the moment of feeling both hope and grief. I am in grief, feeling a sorrow over something which has yet to be and most likely will not be. Layers are falling away, layers of hope unfulfilled. Hope that perhaps…maybe…and now will not be. Not …
My mind and my heart have been full of thoughts and feelings of love. How I love myself and how I love others . . . a beautiful journey filled with the pain both of surrender and merging, autonomy and solitude. This morning, I thought of the following words which dig deep into the wings …
I wrote this article, Bubbles of Ecstasy: My Mother’s Passing, to help me process and with the hope that my story might help someone else with their own experience of passing, and of grief, and of bubbles, Life’s defining moments come from the unknown, sailing past expectations, catching one unaware, in awe. Out of time …
Trusting You is Trusting Me — a two-way road which only works for me when I begin with me.
To Be Held Gently came to me after recent visit to the Portland Japanese Garden. I visit the Portland Japanese Garden often. In part because I am a volunteer garden guide. In part because it is such a beautiful place. This morning, sitting at the Sand and Stone Garden trying desperately to connect to the sand …
Photosynthesis and the Human Body explores the spiritual effects of physical body experiences. Photosynthesis: turning light energy into chemical energy. It’s good to sweat! Doesn’t have to be physical exercise. Sitting in the sun, an infrared sauna, or a hot yoga room. When you sweat, you’re energetically taking in light and letting it go. Getting …
Adventure in Truth came while reading a book and coming across these words: When we let ourselves see only what we expect to see, we view the contents of our own minds and miss what is truly before us. Takashi Matsuoka, Cloud of Sparrows One of my main challenges in life is to go beyond what …
Dear Moma! I love you! It’s been twenty years since you passed, but I have missed you every day that you have been gone! Though there are many times I feel you with me especially in song. Every day I think of something I would like to ask you. And I think how you might …