Holding Still, Diamond Reflection

The holding still while staying open is incredibly difficult.

I wake to feel kisses on the back of my neck and the warm breath of Him.

But this is a Him that has not yet physically appeared in my life.

I feel him move toward me.

I feel him pausing along the way for all the various reasons life pauses though I can’t know with certainty his why.

Each day I embrace the day with joy and excitement, anticipating that this will be the day when it will happen.

And at the same time I am calming myself, reminding myself not to get too far ahead, remain in this moment, the moment prior to approach.

I want to revel in the excitement of knowing that it will happen, that I will meet my Him.

I want to have the moment be now or in the next five minutes — or, oh well, at least some time today.

I want now because I am done with my pausing, my holding still, my frustration of needing, having to wait some more.

Yet as I ask I look at the last couple of months I have shifted yet more.

Even now, I am in a burn of the no longer needed.

Lighter, clearer, happier.

Me is being compacted so that my coal is transforming into a diamond-like expression, reflecting inner light and radiating joy with all that is.

I must be leaving a trail of ashes in the wake of my stillness.

And maybe that is how he will find me.

Maybe my motion in the world and my stillness within create the path to my door.

While the others are deterred by the ashes’ drift, he senses the diamond’s reflection within the prism of his heart.

And it is our connected light which guides him to the stillness of me ready for him.

Holding Still, Diamond Reflection is one of the articles I have written for the section of my blog which answers this question, What is Sacred Relationship?

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Cheryl Marlene
Cheryl Marlene, Akashic Mystic, is unafraid of the tough, the raw, and the real aspects of doing deep work. She is the world’s authority on the Akashic Records and consults in the Akashic Records with clients around the world through readings, research, and executive programs. Student learn to access the Akashic Records through ZENITH, her comprehensive four-level learning program, and her signature classic, The Akashic Records Masterclass. In the field of consciousness, she is known as a futurist, innovator, and master teacher who delivers life-changing lessons with warmth and humor. Her powerful exploration is cutting edge -- providing you with deep insight today to ignite your vision for tomorrow.

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A mystic, futurist, and trailblazer in spiritual consciousness and the Akashic Records, Cheryl is unafraid of the tough, the raw, and the real aspects of doing deep work.

Cheryl has expanded the collective understanding of the Akashic Records beyond the outdated myths of yesterday into a dynamic healing spiritual practice of divine and human consciousness. She consults in the Akashic Records with clients around the world through one-on-one sessions, extensive research, and future-driven, strategic business development.

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